Saturday, December 08, 2007

Probably not Pregnant

Well, it seems I'm not pregnant as I'd hoped I'd be. In my heart, I'm wondering if I might have miscarried, though just too early to have recognized it. The reasons I think this: 1) my luteal phase only lasted 12 days, when it should last at least 14 to be a happy place for a fertilized egg to live. 2) I've had cramps and a "gross" feeling stomach all day, which are period symptoms I never have. 3) To spare the details, my period has just been different from others. and 4) I've read enough and known enough cases to realize that the likelihood of miscarriage is actually pretty high. One of those things where knowledge has only made me fear the worst.

I've heard women can have a period while they're pregnant, and considering how different this one is from most, I guess it could be true. But it could also be true that I miscarried.

Of course, it could be neither, and just being out of town all last week and whatever else is going on could have contributed to a weird period. Nothing to worry about!

Whatever happened, I know that God is in control. He has perfect timing and wisdom, and I trust that.